The doctor confirmed today that I have a partial obstruction of my small intestine. Luckily I am already on IV infusion treatment, and that will be extended for a few weeks and I will remain under Skilled Nursing Care at home. While I am relieved to not have to be admitted into the hospital, I am not pleased that I will be NPO for at least a couple of weeks until this obstruction resolves. [Nil per os (NPO) is a medical instruction meaning to withhold oral food and fluids from a patient for various reasons, such as a gastrointestinal obstruction. It is a Latin phrase whose usual English expansion is nothing by mouth]
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| Diagram of what adhesions look like inside the intestine |
I have these obstructions regularly, some do not require medical intervention but many do. In total I have had 31 that require medical intervention to resolve. They are the result of multiple abdominal surgeries which involved bowel resections and created scar tissue and adhesions. I will have these obstructions for the rest of my life. Each of these obstructions has the potential to be life ending, if the obstruction ruptures instead of resolving I will become septic and need emergency surgery to avoid death. I have known and lived with this scenario for 15 years.
Medical technology has greatly advanced in that time. Five years ago if I experienced a major obstruction it meant I would be hospitalized for weeks on end. The non-surgical treatment is to receive all needed hydration and nutrition through an intravenous infusion, control the intense pain, and rest the gastrointestinal tract by being NPO and allow the blockage to release over time. For me surgery is only a last ditch, emergency, save my life once it ruptures option. Now this treatment can be given at home with the new portable IV pumps, and the guidance and care from skilled nursing visits. For me home is much preferable to the hospital, because of the chance for opportune infections and the extreme costs of hospital care. The only drawback to home care is that pain control is far less, but I would rather white knuckle through the pain at home than feel less in a stupor in the hospital.
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| TPN IV Bags - one is saline with Dextrose with added multivitamins (yellow) The small white bag is the Lipids or fats |
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| You can see the size of the I bag in comparison to the IV pump, the pump fits in your hand. |
The one constant that does not ever improve is the psychological effects of being NPO for an extended time. Anyone who has had to stop all food or water before a surgery or a blood test can begin to have an idea of what that is like. Now imagine continuing that discomfort for two weeks or longer. Your mouth dries out so you have to constantly rinse and spit or swab with these yucky sponge sticks. Beyond the physical discomfort is the intense mental anguish. There have been multiple research studies on food deprivation is on par with sleep and air deprivation; meaning it will completely mess up your head in a bad way.
Like I said, this ain't my first obstruction rodeo, but it does hammer home the reality of an inevitable life changing progression of my medical condition. These obstructions will continue and my reliance on infusions for nutrition and hydration will grow until I am on what is called TPN (total parenteral nutrition), where all of my body's nutrition and hydration will be supplied through my veins directly into my blood stream, skipping my GI tract and it means living my life on NPO. The idea of one day never tasting cheese or fresh milk, or chocolate or fresh baked bread suddenly feels all too real. It makes me wonder about quality of life and what is enough.
When so much of our social constructs revolve around food, the eating of it and the sharing of it; the idea of never eating again seems like a big hit to the quality of life category. I know there are people who survive on TPN, most research though does show full dependence on TPN causes serious kidney and liver damage and the life expectancy is roughly 2 years. This is why the team of GI specialists that I work with are doing everything we can to delay the process of having to depend solely on TPN. It is hard for me to wrap my head around living without eating. And don't get me started on the financial burden that medical treatment will become, TPN is far more expensive than almost any external food sourced diet, like 5X more expensive. I have known the TPN thing was an inevitable progression for nearly a decade, it has been looming in the back ground as one of the final boxes on the check list of things that will occur in my final stages of my life. For a decade it has been the boogieman far off in the shadows, too far to really think about because it was too scary and part of the signs that the end is really approaching.
When so much of our social constructs revolve around food, the eating of it and the sharing of it; the idea of never eating again seems like a big hit to the quality of life category. I know there are people who survive on TPN, most research though does show full dependence on TPN causes serious kidney and liver damage and the life expectancy is roughly 2 years. This is why the team of GI specialists that I work with are doing everything we can to delay the process of having to depend solely on TPN. It is hard for me to wrap my head around living without eating. And don't get me started on the financial burden that medical treatment will become, TPN is far more expensive than almost any external food sourced diet, like 5X more expensive. I have known the TPN thing was an inevitable progression for nearly a decade, it has been looming in the back ground as one of the final boxes on the check list of things that will occur in my final stages of my life. For a decade it has been the boogieman far off in the shadows, too far to really think about because it was too scary and part of the signs that the end is really approaching.
Fortunately for now I am only NPO for the next two weeks, but it certainly gives me food for thought.
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| The IV bag loaded into the back pack along with the Cadd IV Pump and the high volume tubing set. |
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| The IV Pump back pack rides inside a modified suitcase housing - this allows the whole thing to roll on four wheels. With a full IV bag, pump and battery power pack it weighs about 50lbs. |
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| With the suit case housing closed - it rides along like R2D2 - makes it less scary. |
